Mindful Musings by Jennifer Grace

Before I knew what is was that I was meant to do…there was this calling.  It started out as a whisper and eventually turned into a scream. Life was knocking, yet I had refused to listen.  There was too much fear and uncertainty. What would I be good at? Was there something I could love and make money at? What were my innate talents and gifts?

I remember reading back then…over 10 years ago…a quote by Buddha: “Your purpose in life is to find your purpose and give your whole heart and soul to it”

That’s great Buddha…but how do I find it???  It felt like a quest…and annoying word problem from 7th grade math that I couldn’t solve.  It frustrated me to tears.  I wanted so badly to share my creative talents, I wanted to make a difference, I wanted to make an impact. But How?  This calling kept me up at night where I would battle it out with the ittie bittie shittie committee that lived inside my mind.  It would say, “Just get a real job Jen.  You are divorced now, you have blown through so much money trying to “find your purpose” this is a stupid dream and you are not going to have enough money to pay the rent if you don’t stop daydreaming about a life filled with Rainbows and butterflies where you get to do what you love, travel the world, a work from the comfort of your home in your PJ’s.”

I had made the colossal mistake of listening to what everyone else thought I would be good at.
I had met a professional photographer who told me I would make a great manager, so I started PUSH Management, got her book in three galleries in NYC, LA, and Wynwood until I realized I hated this grunt work and the managing of handling someone else’s logistics.

Then a friend asked me to start a non for profit to help Cervical Cancer Awareness, my best friend from childhood had just been diagnosed so I jumped in full speed without even knowing what running and operating a non for profit was all about.
Then lastly another friend said I would make a great spinning teacher at her gym, I got excited, trained and certified, and after about teaching 4 classes I knew this also was not my calling.

What the problem was…was that I was listening to what everyone else told me I would be good at…instead of tuning in and listening to my own intuition.

Finally, through an act of Grace I was led to take a course called CIJ (which I later became certified to teach) based on a course from Stanford University.  It was a master’s degree course in mindfulness and emotional intelligence.  Week five, of the eight-week journey, I popped by taking time to practice journaling and meditation…and I realized that my calling was to help others find their purpose.  My greatest talents were to motivate and to inspire.  Once I graduated from the course and get certified…I never looked back.  Here I am 10 years later living my dream, I get to do what I love, make a difference with others by coaching them online, and YES I get all from the comfort of my own bed in my PJ’s from ANYWHERE in the world.

If you are searching for your calling…I know you will LOVE my upcoming FREE masterclass The Freedom Formula on Aug 23rd at 8pm EST. 

You can RSVP for it Here: www.thefreedomformula.guru